i studied electronics and communication engineering in my bachelors because i wanted to keep my options open. during the course i found myself drawn to specific subjects (and chapters) like electromagnetic theory, fourier analysis, communication systems, digital electronics, numerical methods, C programming and data structures and algorithms. these weren't just subjects to pass - they made me curious about how things actually work.
consuming content is a deeply personal thing. our liking is shaped by our experiences in life. people who have never consumed art which resonated with them, never build taste and never truly enjoy art, it just becomes another form of social signalling.
what is potential? is it not your mind telling you, you ought to be doing better things than what you are currently doing? is it not conflict between your mind and soul? and what is conflict, if not something which snatches your current moment and you feel all the 'shoulds' you ought to be doing.
when i am listening to music, i notice some lyrics create a deep sensation within me. i actually feel something physically. there is no intellectualisation going on.
when somebody hits you in the face? what do you do? you take medicine na. but people don't constantly tell you, hey you are in pain, i will fix you. the medicine you took ain't good enough. i know better. they just trust that you will eventually get better. similarly, when something bothers you mentally, or a 'traumatic' event (event which shatters your narrative you have about yourself) happens, what do you do? you cope with it the way you know best na, but then why do they keep saying, hey you need fixing. i know better. how is this fair? is it not doglapan?