consuming content is a deeply personal thing. our liking is shaped by our experiences in life. people who have never consumed art which resonated with them, never build taste and never truly enjoy art, it just becomes another form of social signalling.
what is potential? is it not your mind telling you, you ought to be doing better things than what you are currently doing? is it not conflict between your mind and soul? and what is conflict, if not something which snatches your current moment and you feel all the 'shoulds' you ought to be doing.
when i am listening to music, i notice some lyrics create a deep sensation within me. i actually feel something physically. there is no intellectualisation going on.
when somebody hits you in the face? what do you do? you take medicine na. but people don't constantly tell you, hey you are in pain, i will fix you. the medicine you took ain't good enough. i know better. they just trust that you will eventually get better. similarly, when something bothers you mentally, or a 'traumatic' event (event which shatters your narrative you have about yourself) happens, what do you do? you cope with it the way you know best na, but then why do they keep saying, hey you need fixing. i know better. how is this fair? is it not doglapan?
when we observe ourselves, there comes a realisation that there is no single observer. the observer is sometimes observed and sometimes becomes what we call 'self'.
one of my fondest memories from childhood was playing football with my homies in incessant rain after school. even if i fall.
i have stopped thinking in terms of generalist or specialist. its slave morality (nietzschean). instead i now think in terms of things i want to do and then go on doing shit i need to get it done.
kids, sometimes in life you cannot differentiate between reality and dreams. most don't get the opportunity to wake up, all their life. they suffer silently and unknowingly. it helps to be around people who can ground you in reality because they can see you better than you can ever see yourself. they too had similar dreams. so if you ever find someone like that, just hold on to them tightly, just like a baby would. they will be the one who will make your life beautiful in ways you cannot even fathom. don't tell tales. and always believe you can shed your skin on the hills you have died on, this is the only way to live a richer and fuller life.